Tuesday, 8 October 2013

Weaving



Once I've written something here, I tend not to ever read it again so forgive me if we've had the spider conversation before. Clearly I wasn't listening or, more likely, was singing loudly with my fingers in my ears.

The last time I gathered with a circle of friends, I got into a conversation about personal power with Sas and Meg. They know a little about this stuff. They were giving me the very gentlest, kindest form of a telling-off pep talk. As I was explaining myself, Sas looked slightly to my right and said,"Heh...a spider just climbed onto your shoulder." At which point I found myself on the ceiling yelling,"WHERE? HELP! WHERE? GET IT OFF ME!" while frantically waving my arms about. Yes, I'm very brave.

Ahem.

After I'd returned home they were everywhere. Cellar spiders. One particularly forceful individual even slowly lowered herself from the ceiling in front of me, stopping at my face level and just hanging there, giving me the old eight-eyed stare. I met not spiders but a scorpion in my journeying, only to find out that scorpions are also arachnids. For a while I came as close as a phobic could to embracing the eight-legged as a spirit guide, wondering if perhaps she would help me with the mountain of shadow work I have to do.

Gradually, I let her go.

Since then I've been braver around them but this autumn our little crooked house is full of them. And I mean full. Charlie does a sweep now and then - not literally - and escorts them all outside but still, on any given day you can find maybe seven or eight or fifteen thousand in each little room. They don't frighten me one at a time, but en masse..shudder..my spidey senses go all weird and nauseous.

Earlier this week as part of my new morning practise, I was standing in a field asking for the support of the spirits and some advice as to who I should look to for guidance in this and other realms. As you do of a morning. I asked for a message from the spirit guide I need. At this point Dooley came running and took me to the nearest blackberry bush - no surprise there - and after finding him some juicy berries I glanced up at the rising sun and saw that between us were a thousand beautiful, dew-covered webs. Oh surely not..?

Denial.

The next day I'd begun to feel guilty about walking away from what I'd asked for. Sitting in the bath, I looked over at the pile of clothes I'd left on the floor (what?) and there, sitting on top like Sir Edmund effing Hillary, was a spider. Staring me down. We chatted. I caved. Said okay...I was in...I'd do as I'm told. At which point he casually turned and disappeared who knows where.

Back in my bedroom, I reached for a hairbrush and there on my outstretched arm was a small house spider and I am truly terrified of those. All the reaction I could muster was a resigned sigh as I let her run off me onto the bookshelf.

There's so much to be learnt from the spider but here's a nicely-wrapped summing up from druidry.org:

The spider is associated with its spiral energy, the links with the past and the future. The spiral of the web, converging at a central point, is something to be meditated upon by those with spiders as a guide. Are you moving toward a central goal or are you scattered and going in multiple directions? Is everything staying focused? Are you becoming too involved and/or self-absorbed? Are you focusing on others' accomplishments and not on your own? Are you developing resentment because of it - for yourself or them?
If a spider is a guide in your life, ask yourself some important questions. Are you weaving your dreams and imaginings into reality? Are you using your creative opportunities? Are you feeling closed in or stuck, as if in a web? Do you need to pay attention to your balance and where you are walking in life? Are others out of balance around you? Do you need to write? Are you inspired to write or draw and not following through? Remember that the spider is the keeper of knowledge and of the primordial alphabet. The spider can teach how to use the written language with power and creativity so that your words weave a web around those who would read them.


6 comments:

  1. Our spirit guides show up in strange ways.

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  3. Wow! Have you been to my blog lately!? I am all about the spiders this season. I loved this post.

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    1. I have : ) And it's been freaking me out because I am a big wuss but I really appreciate your vision of the beauty.

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